Thread:Kracked/@comment-27491757-20161120044042

You know, I realize that our whole break-up and shit was all me getting so overdramatic and being hurt over this stupid little online site where freaking 9 year olds act like brats, but shit I can't just let it go. Oh I know I'm being all pitiful and dramatic and shit right now but fuck after just letting it boil for three weeks at least I'm fucking saying it.

I feel used. The only times we broke up was when YOU brought up the fact we hadn't talked in, like, a week or a week and a half, or we weren't as expressive as we had been a few weeks ago, and decided suddenly it might not work out! You said you felt "flighty" and, you know what, obviously that goes to show I wasn't good enough and that you didn't feel grounded because I wasn't holding up my end of the bargain! Whatever that fucking may be, with activity or communication or the roleplay or some shit like that, it was clearly shown I wasn't doing enough. Shit, you even LIED about it the night before we broke up the second time, when we were "flirting". Or I just for once filled these expectations of yours!

Yes, I'm mad. Yes, I'm frustrated. Yes, I'm hurt. Yes to all that shit. Why wouldn't I be? You were one of the ONLY people that I considered even a friend, nevertheless a close one, and the ONLY person I've ever felt much romantic compassion towards. Obviously I'm going to take this hard, one fucking way or the other. Sure online dating is online, but you were one of the only ones THERE. Well, apparently not now.

I know I'm being a complete and utter shitty ass right now saying these things, but you know what? At least I'm saying them. At least I'm not letting them boil until they turn into a really massive shit pile; well, a shit pile bigger than this one. And I'm sorry if this is hurting you or whatever, but I just have to let it out sometime. Just, goddamnit Axel, I can't let go of this. I just fucking can't. God fucking damnit. 